i'm sorry... it's bad... you've been diagnosed with..... homesickness?!?!

Homesick?! What do you mean homesick?! I've never been homesick!! What am I supposed to do now?? How do I make it go away?? I clearly can't go home, and probly they don't make medicine for this type of thing... I've never been homesick in my life... there have been times when I had friend or roommate problems and home was the only other place that I could think to be, or ya know stuff like that, but never in my life have I actually been homesick. It's very weird and very new feeling... I don't like it. I wish I'd had more time, or I wish that I could be in two places at once, or that I could fly... and just visit on the weekends! What is this crap?! *sigh* well... other than that things are going quite well. Thanks to a lot of prayers, all of the confusion was worked out and I'm situated... still unpacking and getting back into the swing of things, but it's hard because I want to have fun... and I want to have adventures... maybe it's senioritis.... yea probly... and mixed with homesickness... and blah blah blah...
Yesterday I went and spent most of the day with Kayleen... I mailed a package, and printed some pictures and got most of the rest of my art stuff. It was really fun to be able to hang out and talk with Kayleen. Then today my roommates and I went to the temple... I really needed it today, there has been a lot weighing on my mind as of late and I really needed to go and sort some things out... gah! I hate this feeling, it's so weird and not a nice feeling and I just want it to go away!! It's such a different feeling than the other emotions I've felt... and I know my emotions!! This is just a feeling I don't like... I don't understand it and so I don;t like it. Homesick really almost feels sick... i hate it. Haha I keep asking my roommate Meghan about homesickness.... I know that the first time we lived together she got homesick a lot and I used to worry, and I didn't really understand. And I keep just feeling this weird feeling that comes when I think about my family or my friends, so I keep asking her questions about it. haha it's kinda funny to think of it that way.
Wow I sound so negative... I'm really not... life has been good to me lately... even through the hard stuff, my life really is more than I ever could have asked for. It's really a wonderful blessing to be able to come to a university and study art and music. I really am truly grateful and so very blessed.
Tomorrow will be my first day in my new ward, it will hopefully be fun. It should be cool to meet new people and to get a new calling and all sorts of stuff, and I need to make sure I get my homework done. bah! This stupid feeling needs to leave.... now...

sooner than it seems life turns around....

So I just skimmed over my last post, and I don't sound like a very happy person! well maybe mot that bad, but i don't think i was on the up side of life. so i decided that i should update!! even though i don't think anyone reads this.... someone should read it. Anyway in my last post i was quite sad about not having any friends here, and i missed my far away friends so much. Heavenly Father hears my prayers and answers them :) Pronly sometime right after that last post I went to a dance and met my new best friend aka another best friend! It was miraculous! I don't think I've ever really experienced having an instant best friend, usually people have to get used to me first and then decide, but not this time! It's so cool! She's made being here and everything a whole lot easier!! and A LOT more fun! I feel so blessed.... also, not long after that post, I found a job!! as an inventory taker!! not the most fun job ever, but i get $9/hr and hey it's a job!! Life is crazy, but I most definitely have not been left alone to face it. I've been blessed with more than help and strength than I could have ever asked for!! It's been wonderful to watch the tender mercies of the Lord happen in my life... so wonderful and I've learned so much, and though life is still difficult at times, and I still have many... many weak moments I don't know if I've ever felt more blessed!! Not that I haven;t been, because I definitely have been.... maybe i've just been able to see it better. For the first time i think ever i'm wicked torn about going back to school! I've found so many good things and learned so much and been so blessed not to mention made an amazing friend in the last 3 months. It's been amazing :)