yes.... yes i am. or i might be. it's too early to really tell. I probably won't really but right now I am. Probably it sucks trying to find love and fall into it... I'm sure that once you find it, that it is most definitely worth the pain and the heartache that you put into it... but what if you don't find it? Does that mean that the pain and heartache were all for nothing?! Nothing more than useless hope and broken dreams. Why should I get my hopes up?! Ok, ok i know better than that, but I'm impatient and it's so hard to look and see the big picture when nothing has even almost worked well... I'm frustrated and this is stupid. I don't like this game called life anymore...
At least I know that some of the people around me are happy and being taken care of.... really I want that more than anything.
